'cause one completes the other...

amore
Originally uploaded by kaos 2.

Love is the food our soul and body need... it's the fuel that keeps us smiling, crying, singing, writting, it's what makes us feel alive, the joy and the pain it causes are telling us constantly that we are still here, living and aiming to find that thing, feeling, person, fact, that will make us complete... =)

I'm not a perfect person

pearlykotori
Originally uploaded by kaos 2.

Well today I actually wasn't going to write anything, I'm feeling great at this moment, maybe it's just because you finally showed a bit of interest and we had a funny and needed chat...
I have always dreamed with a life where I had a husband, a kid or two (and my career)... but you know? I changed those wishes, I don't care if I don't get married anymore, all I really want is to love someone with all the intensity that my body can resist, with every cell, every breath, with everything I am... that is what I really want, that is what would really make me feel complete.. and to be honest, I'm already feeling complete... feeling that what the future will bring later on will be just fine because I'm finally giving everything that can be given... to you. Now I know what unconditional love is, what it is to keep nothing for me, to share my most secret desires with you, to learn with you everything that there is to be learned. And no matter what happens when we meet again... you will always be in my heart and in my life.

My favorite monkey

It's been only 6 days since our last chat and it already seems an eternity. Anyway, I've thought about all the possibilities that can be making you so distant lately. I decided I'll trust you even if everything indicates I shouldn't. I made up my mind, that means I'll be patient and will be waiting for you to finally speak. Hope I am not being some kind of annoying presence in your life this time.

I wish you can give yourself a little time just to tell me you're ok.

P.S. I found a nickname for you, " my monkey", you'll always make me laugh...

I shall believe

wolf_2
Originally uploaded by kaos 2.

The weather is turning colder and I don't have your warmth to get over it. Right now I'm going through a very vulnerable stage and I really need to have you close to me, giving me a little of your time just to know you care...
"In case you fail to notice, In case you fail to see, this is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees"...
I hope we can talk and that with it I can realize you are as close to me as always, that nothing has changed.

miss you

call u
Originally uploaded by kaos 2.

(sigh) where are you?

Disappointment

And all of the sudden you realize you were expecting another reaction... I hope I'm wrong, but lets be realistic, the chances of being loyal to somebody when the distance between you is 1500 km... really sucks! Unless you are the type of loyal loser that believes in love and loyalty to that person no matter what... then again, I feel worse, 'cause I'm that type of loser... I believe in love above all... Maybe I shouldn't be so cruel with myself, but the fact is that in that place so far away (1500 km from here) you can have any man or woman you want... and to be honest, not having a lot of news from you makes me thinks that maybe you don't want me to have any news... that is not too bad, the bad part is to have to think why you don't want me to have news... I'm paranoid again... so what!! I can be as paranoid as I want, because it's me who is in pain right now... it's me the one that wishes, needs to hear from you that nothing has changed... it's me who needs to believe you when you say so... it's me who fell in love with you.

Don't you hate it when you get in this situation? When you thought you could handle having a wonderful relationship without a true commitment? When you realize you are in front of the man or woman of your life, but he or she... is not ready for you yet?

In the other hand maybe all this mess is just it... a mess only existing in my head and I'm judging you as badly as always... my insecurity again is making me think what i shouldn't... (sigh)