Miss you

How did I end up this way? You might be wondering, what does "this way" mean? The truth is that it's not easy to explain, I guess the things we live day after day, year after year makes everyone of us, at a moment of our lives, repeat the same words I just wrote... How did I end up this way? At this very instant I stand before you, broken hearted, unable to find a reason to keep my faith in love. Someone told me recently that fairytales do exist, that happy endings are true and that it depends on us to find those things.. Well, it's not that I don't think it might be true, but, I also know that some of us maybe weren't born for this. Sometimes I just can't understand why people being so cruel to others, or so indifferent to the world, can actually find a couple or even cheat and not be caught and keep finding what they want or need in their lives... Sometimes I can't understand why those with unique feelings, those true to their hearts have to suffer so much.. Today as many other days, I'm wondering if there's something wrong with me. Am I too dumb or too smart? Too loyal? Am I such a burden to carry? Why on earth, heaven or hell the person I finally give my whole heart, and that seems to be THE ONE for me, is now doubtful and can't stand having me by his side?

I'm not being dramatic, but even destiny made things appear to be perfectly timed here. This love was sentenced to end because of an inevitable distance that shall fall between lovers, and destiny itself avoided it the very same day that distance seemed to take one of us away.. As you may recall both had deep bruises from the past.. And know out of doubt, fear, my loved one decides to set me away instead of holding on to each other. That's not the worst part, I finally understand that I no longer possess a heart to give or to be broken by anyone else.. For only his love has the power to heal my wounds..

By this time you might have a slight idea of the pain I'm in... Who would've thought that my true love would be a prince from a far away land, and that he must return to his throne unprincessed...

Am I not worth a try? There's nothing I wouldn't do for this love, I would spend my entire life finding ways to keep the flame alive, to heal the wounds his heart has, if he only allowed me to..

Is he really not capable of loving or is he only hiding from his true feelings? Does he love me so and can't stand the idea of losing me? Why is he acting this way? Did he fake all this time? Those kisses weren't real? He never felt them? Did he ever feel anything?

Oh God, please help me out here... Don't let my faith fade.. Please...

"Although we’ve come to the end of the road, still I can’t let you go... It’s unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you... And I’m still gonna be here for you ’till my dying day. Right now, I’m just in so much pain, cause you just won’t come back to me. Will you? Just come back to me..."

JAOM : You once said: Siempre juntos.. What changed?