Incomplete...

Hi, it's been a really long time since my last post. So many events have occured in my life during the past year that I'm finding it hard to order my thoughts today..

I'd like to make a special mention at this point, as we may recall, my sentimental life has always been not quite perfect.. as a matter of fact, it's... let us say it this way, simply the story of my life...

As the story begins, I met wonderful people, some became close, others didn't... and from those 1st class people, 1 turned out to be the one I might've been expecting, the one I wrote a letter for.. without even knowing if I was going to meet him or not. But he appeared in my life and to be honest, I tried so hard no to fall for him, but tell me how can you walk away from a person that represents your deepest hopes, wishes, ideas, and that even though you are so alike, you're also so different... suddenly you realize how one really completes the other, with joy when the other felt that feeling lost, or with strength when you no longer had the will to fight.. It's magical how both can stand up against the world if they had to and become fearless of the struggle or the harsh road they must follow to continue building a reality that almost feels as a dream... And finally you are living, truely living, that the word spelled, told, heard so many times, has a true meaning, one far beyond anything you expected, one only your heart is able to fully embrace... L O V E. Life is now turning out to be incredible, it gains a new glow, brings out the best of you, smiling all the time, thanking heaven for all these blessings...

After all the written above, fear of losing it again came once in a while, but it vanished 'cause there was no reason to fear, nobody could've noticed what was coming... It ended.. one sad night, stars were shinning, there was a soft breeze, cold but still soft... all the light faded away so quickly, the feeling that now prevailed, though it wasn't a new one, was the slow loss of all hope.. how everything is so fragile, and how insignificant you can become in a second. Seeing every dream slipping away from your hands, hearing in all that silence the only sound produced in that moment, your heart breaking with every agonic beat it gave... Every cell in your body knew there would be no true recovery from this, that there would be nothing left to break after that night, and still you had to accept the fact that even though there were only pieces left, each tiny fragment will produce so much pain, and it really is...

I know your story is a sad one to tell, and I also know you're in pain too.. but all I want you to know and to feel is that I truely believe God sent you in response to my pleas.. That I truely believe that the reason you felt and still feel something deep inside of you, as you think in me or in what we had, is that you also have to face reality and be sure you're having a second chance here. It might not be as perfect, nor the same, but what is? Everyone's unique, and for that reason this love is also different and that doesn't make it less worthy of existing...

" I've been searching for you, I heard a cry within my soul . I've never had a yearning quite like this before.. Now that you are walking right through my door... All of my life where have you been? I wonder if I'll ever see you again.. And if that day comes, I know we could win... "