Cold water

Mind, body and soul must have a balance so that life can go on easily or at least as swiftly as possible. As life moves on, the delicate balance between this 3 elements can be and is lost in a blink of an eye. It's hard to regain the equilibrium. I lost mine. My mind keeps telling to stay where I am, that I can't do what my body and soul ask for. My soul is aching and my body as well 'cause I'm realizing that I can't keep up with this... this terrible pain in me is yelling inside me, demanding to be set free at once. All this affliction maintain memories alive, feelings coming back to me, and even though I know there is nothing there for me... I can't help but wanting to be alone with my grief and with my love. A love stronger than than me, a love that is with me in every place I am.

I'm so sorry, but I think it's better for me to be alone now, I can't hurt you like I might do if all those emotions continue haunting me. I'm so sorry "T", I'm really trying but I'd rather let you go than make you a part of my breakdown. I do care for you, but I guess it's not enough. I'm sorry.

"Cold, cold water surrounds me now and all I've got is your hand. Lord, can you hear me now?... or am I lost?"