Because of you...

I'm tired of being judged so easily... of not being understood, of not even given a try. It hurts so much that I had friends who I really cared about and for an insignificant thing they turned their backs to me and now that it can't past unnoticed they don't have the guts to take their share of the responsability and it's me the one pointed out. It's so frustrating to know what really happened and even if you explain the situation it's like if your effort meant nothing... Nothing changes, now you're judged even harder, now besides being mean you are also cold, heartless, and why not? brainless too..

It hurts and is also so humiliating that a person you care so much can be part of that same situation... What is going on? When did the world get so twisted? Why is people guilty considered innocents? Why should innocents be judged? Why are friends letting you down? Why are enemies... no they will always be that way... however... Why stupid and idiot persons,that need to feel accepted, think they actually are accepted and now feel free to judge a situation that has nothing to do with them??? Why is unworthy people given credit when they don't even figure in the map to begin with... and this is just because the truely involved ones can't have the humility to say: " we are sorry, we never meant to turn our backs on you..." Why is this world full of cowards?

Why can't I trust someone I really cared for?? Why do I feel so bad??

Why do I get the feeling that in this world being a loyal, caring friend and above all being honest to your heart and moral ideas is simply not accepted anymore? Why do people wearing masks, people that can't be tolerated even among their kin rule now? When did love and manners lose power? When did my heart stop beating? When did my bruises ended up bleeding so badly that my body turned cold?

"I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far... Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me.. My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with..."